Beau, I'm sending my prayers and thoughts of light as well. It's hard to go through this time, yet you have an opportunity to love your mom through it whatever the outcome, and sharing that love will bring you closer together. I can tell she loves you and I know that love will never die. I've been touched by loved ones who have passed on, and I don't think death is the end, even if the physical bond is broken. Especially when the bond is as strong as yours. Feeling the pain is tough, but never knowing love is way worse. What a blessing and a gift you have given each other, to choose to love.