I don't know why but somehow when I post here, the ability to write in clear, concise, short sentences just goes by the wayside and I find myself witing in these long blobs of stream-of-conscienceness and if it keeps up I'm afraid you people will find out all my deepest, darkest secrets and either you will all hate me or you'll all laugh at me(and I mean at me, not with me) and then I don't know what I'll do so I will try to think before I type and figure out what I really want to say and...GASP...take a breath once in a while, cause come to think of it , rambling on and forgetting to breathe would cut the oxygen to my brain and that surely can't be conducive to short, clear, concise sentences and so if you'll excuse me for a sec [aaaah(inhale)-haaah(exhale)] and it's all becoming clear and OH MY GOD I DID IT AGAIN