One of the hardest things for me to do is keep my game face on ... I can't fall apart but inside I am dying .. just dying .. She is so strong, she just shrugged her shoulders and said well lets fix this ..

I try to smile and say see all the times they cut stuff outta me .. are your trying to catch up .. your turn I guess .. and she smiles and says well I just don't want to be left out of all the hospital fun . but we are both dying inside. Can't wait for this to be over with. Thank God for my doc buddie .. he brings me back down to earth when I lose it .. but never in front of her. I just have to believe him