Yes life can be sad and the older I get the worse it feels. My cousin died who I was very close to, he was 3 months younger than me. His mum and mine were both close as sisters so it was like an extended family spending the majority of time doing the usual family things together. all through my teens I always took it for granted that we would grow up and support each other later should anything happen to our parents I didn't bank on him goimg at 47 years old 18 months after his father died. Just after that I just couldn't even picture his face anymore. Then one night I had a dream that I knocked at the door of a house they used to live at and as he opened the door smiling he was in the middle of making toast like he used to do when we were in our teens. Then I said 'I thought you were gone,' He joked and laughed, 'It wasn't as bad as all that bad passing through' and then shut the door. I felt a little bit better because I actually saw his face smiling albeit from the end of the 70s style of clothes but still sad because I will never get to have a drink with him again or tell him how things are going like we used to do.