Well, pesronally, I am sick of Christianity. When I first started praying for help over one thing, I had a job and some form of life. The prayers to Christ were rewarded by thoughts like "Well if you want a girlfriend you must pray to the devil" (not Jayne who I mentioned, this was in about 1987, a subsequent trip to a mental hospital and the label schizophrenia, then no job, then alcholosim, then got knows what including going through exorcisms as it was felt strongly that there was Demonic oppression going on (which I still suspect is the truth).

I watch myself go further and further down hill and continue to ask for help and get denyied by Christ. I honestly am at the point where I believe I should have prayed to the devil all those years ago.

I do believe there is a God and that Christ was his son but since me making the effort to try to find him and pray for help I have been shit on by them.

Take my advice, find a decent God - not this one! Jon