Answer to #1, I am not aware that it was a belief of mine, just a reccuring "you've should be praying to the devil" thought at the time. I can come up with 2 viewpoints at this stage, maybe I should have taken the "pray to the devil line". Perhaps everyhing was all the wierd events that happend were caused by my mind. Assuming my mind could do that and I was unaware of its own power and the condition of praying to the devil was something my mind created, I most definately should have prayed to the devil. The other one was sticking to the no, the power is outside and I must stick with God... I wonder why I bothered. The trouble I have with the other possibilites is the sets of coincidences and precise timeimgs I would have to accept (and can provide witness from others too - getting out of touch with reality becomes hard to reason with in those circumstances).

I don't understand your #2/

I know #3 but although I apreciate friends and know I have them, it doesn't really help me solve anything.

Jon