Cheers Jeri and kat, I will think on it but I doubt if I will end up moving from Christainity even though I hate what it has done to me - I wish I could but it seems to one of lifes traps and one I wish I was out of.

As well of thinking about your words, I will think of the one who we (Christians) are all remined of who apparently got his time of suffering over in a couple of days, and went through in it agreement that it was going to happen and in certain knowledge that he would rise again. Sorry to preach here but I for one, would have rather had the tr ial and the time on the cross than years of torment... Sorry cancer victims, etc, your suffering was never as great as his.

Jon