Somehow we managed to add a hockey game an hour away to ydy's prep for final assault (this year) on fleas. And TBTG the "strangest" thing has happened to me-- I've lost my fear of the possible health results of the flea chemicals. Oh, I have not forgotten them nor stopped exercising reasonable care for self (and those in my charge), but the FEAR is gone.

I woke up one day recently, realizing that I "should" have "died" years ago from "X" and years ago from "Y" and years ago from "Z." And I am not only alive but feel great most of the time, except for the occasional knee twinge or momentary inconvenience. I truly do have all that I need, and it's enough. Nothing I did "got" me that feeling. It's just there by Grace. And if these chemicals have a health consequence for me-- I can think of several that might result-- then TOUGH BEANS! Bring it ON!

I've been wondering if some inner stress is waking me up every night at 3 or 4 AM. LOL-- it's not a worry, it's the peace, staring me in the face!
It's not the impending doom-- it's blessings demanding to be counted!
It's not the nightmares (very weird of late)-- I sleep right thru THOSE. It's the safe feeling when I wake up!
It's not being hungry, tho TBTG I am-- it's Life coursing thru me so strongly that I have to notice how abundantly is the provision for it!


Off to air out the room that got last night's flea bomb--


Blessings,

~Susan