How 'bout accepting that you need some serious DOWN time at home for you only to just relax and if you think of just one small thing that you FEEL like doing that would make YOU feel better, just do that one thing and wait for "the spirit to move you" to whatever YOU feel like doing next. It sounds as though you are in exhaustion - mental, emotional and physical. A hit of magnesium might help. Alcohol is a depressant.

Actually, I was thinking of going folk dancing today but it seems like a better idea to just veg out. On a beautiful sunny day, but cold. Maybe I will phone a couple folks. Or just read a book. Maybe the woman whose health card I found on the street this am will contact me. I messaged her on FB. Maybe I will read awhile, I will keep up with Raccoon Network, I will look at lyrics and youtubes for Christmas songs. I might put the buttons on my coat, or take the broken zipper out of the jacket, or rearrange the LR ---- OR take a nap - until I FEEL like doing something else useful.

I will not "should" on myself. Sometimes we just need to BE.