Leeneia, I am loving that station! Thanks so much for the suggestion!

Janie, dear one, I'm glad you're getting good advice and taking as much of it as you can. You Are Not Alone, and most of us belong to the been-there-done-that club. I am grateful that my list is (for now) rather shorter than yours, but it's been right up there, and likely will be again. Just keep taking one day at a time, pause to breathe and think of one thing you are grateful for. And don't worry about comparing your lot to others- your feelings are yours, and what you're experiencing is what YOU are experiencing, and it's valid!
In other words, we got your back, and you can vent here all you want!