Well Janie, the thread helped me not to stress out about my limitations. Often they piss me off. Between back and bowel troubles (unrelated to each other) I can be overwhelmed by trying to fit even basics of life in between the necessary rest and recovery times. I fry easily. Usually first physically and then mentally.

However, tonight I am refusing to be stressed by the fact that tomorrow late morning I have a rehearsal for which I have done ZERO personal practise due to other pressing things like illess and a company dinner with my husband (such events are a challenge with a recovering bowel, but hey he has a job and we can pay the bills--both are huge pluses).

Anyway tomorrow no doubt I will make a lot of embarrassing errors and maybe be the target of a few sideways glances but the hour will eventually be over--goes fastest if I just concentrate on the music. Later in the week I'll be stronger and I'll get my own part up to scratch, and the dress rehearsal and 2 concerts next week will go well enough. Has chronic illness finally worked most of the perfectionist out of me??