Shouldn't feel so bad about it Mo, or feel it so deeply. I remember the first Christmas morning I worked as a teacher. I wept thinking of the poor children that I taught, and the deprivation that was their lot. None of the kids were any better off for my tears, or were any nicer to teach as I remember.

All we can do (pagan or Christian) to make the holiday special is to be nice to those close to us. And perhaps (if we can afford it) give a little to charity.