"Never felt better in my life" - why should it be too late to say that on my death bed? I don't know how good I would feel if I could tell to myself that I managed to get there in dignity and if somebody I feel loved by (does that construction work in english?) was there. It's never, NEVER too late to feel better than ever before.

And anyway - *garrrinnn* - wouldn't that be kind of FAMOUS last words? Sad and cynical of course ("Thank God this BS has come to an end.") but what if I want to express exactly that? At the moment I'm far from believing that life is BS but opinions change as we get smarter ......... uhm .............. as we get, err, at least different. Still much better than having to die without being able to express anything.

Well, that's only some longer refresh, because it doesn't refer to what I'm really interested in. But I don't object any more to situations when nobody knows something to say. Maybe they're all thinking. As I am.

Patience.

Joerg