mg: you do come up with interesting thoughts. Now, on day 6 of no choc, I am having daily bs swings. I think I read somewhere that it helps regulate bs but I have been eating too much – 50-100gm – and it is such an addiction that I am really trying hard. I have done without before without this problem. But I have also cut out all cookies so my diet these few days has only the sugar made from the little carbs I ingest. Today I ate a fruit pie from – AGHHH – McD's which was in the frig a month or two. (I had to nuke it under a damp paper towel!). That settled things down. But now it is time to eat again. I think I'll do the stewed apples and cranberries. granola and yogurt.

We are out of plain yogurt and veggies and bread and….. I have not had the car at all this week but R's truck should be done by tomorrow, Then I will need to do a big shopping. May have a chance to use car tonight MAYBE.

Fat, as in bacon, inhibits the production of insulin. I played with that once and found that too much sugar gave me a headache in one part of head (front or back but I don't remember which) and too little caused a headache in the other part. Hypoglylcemic most of my life, I had been doing better – ALWAYS have food available! Only this week has been strange – juggling to make sure the correct balance of foods is ingested. But with an eye toward low caloric intake.

I still feel better though tired in aft, but not falling asleep as I was most afternoons recently. I actually did not realize how poorly I was feeling, too many days but not all. Saw something on line about buckwheat helping bs. Thinking about trying a "cookie" made of buckwheat, choc, cranberries, honey something else? Ground sunflower seeds or chickpea flour, a binder of some sort ….

Walked to library yesterday and day before. House is above 60 currently. Monday and Tuesday were thawing days. Wet but nice. Now it is a moderate 20F and overcast again. We have finally reduced the mouse pop by four. That might be it! I cleaned the counters thoroughly to see if there is any mouse sign tomorrow. An Amarylis is sending up two healthy stalks!

This week has been a support R week through a couple crises. Hope one is done today and the other has to conclude this phase tomorrow by 5 pm. Sometimes deadlines are good! So I am hanging out to feed him when he gets a chance to stop in..

The most amazing thing happened yesterday. Bro called to tell me what was going on, i.e. where R was and his phone was not with him and blither, blither, blither. Totally unnecessary. We had had a go-round on Tuesday when I let him have it about how stressed R is "and YOU are the cause." So he tells me "R was here this aft and he was not stressed at all." 64 years and he does not have a clue about R! R had come home about 3 pm for a bite and was so stressed he was shaking. He sat here wanting very much not to leave. Oblivious? Self centred? I just got him off the phone asap. It does no good to talk with him.

To the country tomorrow for music on Fri and Sat, see friends, and maybe get the internet connected at the cabin. Peace and quiet, in any case, in a warm and beautiful place.