Yes, I have made so many mistakes and done so many things that I am not proud of that I wish I had a rewind button. Having said that, if I could reverse one thing, I would reverse my descision to turn to Christianity in 1987 as that event seemed to spark of more dissasters than I would have believed possible and certainly life has never been the same since.

This may sound mad but having turned that way, I see no way out of it and I am stuck with my beliefs and I can't simply tell myself to change my faith as I then am fighting what I believe, for exapmle that he is the son of god... just wish I'd never gone there in the first place.

Jon