Aw Bert. I know. I tried to go back to several things. I'd even healed well and cried what I thought were enough tears-- I mean REALLY worked through it. But it was just like you said. I didn't know it wasn't just me, I thought I'd blown it with lousy, piss-poor recovery. Thank you so much.

Bron, that's a great list. Yes. Letting the true thoughts bubble up, as they come, yes. All the rest too.

One of those thoughts for me has stuck; it was a deep lesson to learn-- I will never again do uphill work. I'm too good to put into a thing that will chew me up. I'm a good chisel, see? I don't work at my best on concrete. I can make a MUCH bigger difference in the world NOT working in the setting that kills me. Doesn't mean I don't work out on the edge, take on challenges. You see me do that here. But no more Sisyphus, this girl. I'd rather roll down to it.

~S~