I sympathize with your feelings about therapy. I am a painfully private person and found the process similar to picking at scabs. You have to take off the scab to release the infection underneath. It is an ugly nasty business but you come out of it infection free and capable of dealing with any further outbreaks on your own.
I found therapy very difficult but worth every minute of discomfort.

There are too many guests posting at Mudcat as "Guest,I'd Rather Not Say." The one who posted here just now should choose a new Guest name if you're not going to post as your registered self. Someone else has been using this guest name more consistently than you. And keep track of yourself - you DID post that last message, despite your protest to the contrary. --mudelf