Did you ever read a book on Taoism? You might find it quite likeable.

For sure. I've got about 10,000 translation of the Tao Te Ching and several more of Chuang Tzu. In both cases I love the old Gia Fu Feng translations. Alan Watt's Tao: The Watercourse Way was important to me once & probably still is but it must be 30 years since I read it.