Thanks for the advice, Maggie, but I've dealt with ALL of that years ago. It's just interesting to be reminded of what, exactly, went on in my life during that period -- and not all of it was bad.

No, I exorcised all that once and for all over twenty years ago. Right after I left him and divorced him and everything, I was way too busy getting on with my life and making up for what had held me back for the previous ten years.

Then when a passing incident involving a friend triggered it, I had a nice, neat, QUICK, Teutonic nervous breakdown when I could -- I was in a loving marriage and had a great support network of friends around me. And I could work through any guilt or other feelings I still had lingering over that first marriage -- such as all my reasons for marrying him in the first place (all the wrong reasons, but I had to take responsibility for them, understand them and accept them as part of growing up).

So this is just an interesting trip down memory lane and not a ghostly demon looming out of my past. The good memories triggered by reading these letters far outnumber any residual bad energy.

Linn