khandu can do! Wnenever despair and darkness begin to drag you down, come to the mudcat as you did this time. There's obviously a large community here who wishes you all the best. I, too, first thought of responding with "one of those years, how about one of those decades/lifetimes, etc." I won't presume to say we've all been there, or "we know how you feel." Just know that you're not alone and never have to be. Sending you warm and kind thoughts and the love of a fellow traveller...