If you haven't experienced it, I suggest you read about it AND UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU READ. Here are some suggestions:

Grossman, Dave. On Combat.
Grossman, Dave. On Killing.
Keegan, John. The Face Of Battle.
Holmstedt, Kirsten. Band of Sisters.
Holmstedt, Kirsten. The Girls Come Marching Home.
S. L. A. Marshall. Pork Chop Hill.

But I doubt if you'll take my suggestions. Perhaps its better if you don't.

And for all of us who ARE experienced...thanks. You're the best there is.