I totally agree, Eliza. The style of the NT is pointed and poetical, indulging in paradoxes. It assumes a reader who knows how to interpret its style, like poetry. Many misunderstand it, others understand it correctly but do not know how to teach (- similar to my piano teacher who was an excellent pianist, or my sports teachers, alas!).

Obviously love cannot be commanded in the way formal duties can. And that is the very point of the "commandment". Faith is about exploring one's relationship to one's "neighbours", ancestors, fellow humans, and the universe. The more you proceed in that, the less you will be worried by envy and other bad feelings - automatically! Those who feel they have to castigate themselves are rarely successful.