Morning,

it is a lovely sunny day here, my car is out of action so I cannot go off for a drive, but I can walk round the garden and pick snowdrops and enjoy the warmth of the sun.

Billy took me to Lowestoft yesterday to see our son and his family, I took lunch and cooked a huge roast beef dinner in his very small galley kitchen , such a laugh ,too small for more than one helper at a time! It was really lovely to see Reuben age 6, who is growing taller by the day. He is the most beautiful boy ( why do they get the long eyelashes? )

It was so good to have a day away from home. I am afraid since the " bugging" incident ( I chickened out on the confrontation option so far, coward that I am ) everytime my brother visits , I am on edge and have to check everywhere when he goes home just in case!! I am not usually a nervy person, but I am sleeping very badly and I am feeling very unwell. I am sure he knows I found the recorder but nothing has been said on either side.I am afraid I am sure the motive was the cost of the carers but I had an occupational Therapist visit last week to assess mother and she has said she needs 24 hour care as she is at risk of falls or harm due to the dementia, she also agrees that she is happy and content in our home and residential care would distress and confuse her.

Just very worried about Billy as I am sure he is just as upset as me but also worries about how it is affecting me. Thank goodness we have just a brilliant and strong marriage. He really is my rock!

Enough of negative thinking, off to the garden, snowdrops to pick and feel the son on my face.
Lovely poem Nigel, love to Linn ( did you ever get a little package that I put in someone else's secret Santa?)

Love to all the crew,Spring is coming

Wendy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx