> I would not wish to live eternally in a heaven run by a deity whose rules were as they said.

Thomas Nagel said something similar in "What Does It All Mean?" (1987), one of the best philosophy books under 125 pages ever written for the astute but average Joe.

However, I don't think Nagel went so far as to suggest he'd reject Grace and Forgiveness if they were directly and unmistakably offered.

Your position seems more, um, Miltonic.