Took yesterday as a "Quiet" day...recovering from the sessions and sociability surrounding the first anniversary of Tom's death. I needed to be surrounded by friends and music -- as I had last year when he died. But yesterday I needed quiet.

Tried to call a couple people (late in the afternoon when I could finally deal with it), but several weren't home. Called my 94-year old great aunt to apologize for having not sent a card and a note. (I've not been doing well in that regard this past year, although I seem to manage to mail the sympathy cards of which there are way too many.)

Today I have to get things done...including a funeral this afternoon. I really am tired of friends dying. Someone said recently that we're all getting further and further out on progressively thinner ice, but it's still a shock when someone falls through. Nate was 46 -- way too young. I found out Friday (anniversary of Tom's death) and just. Couldn't. Call his mother. Tears and my loss are still so close to the surface and I feel the loss of others so intensely... I knew I couldn't speak without crying. So I wrote her a note and mailed it at the Portsmouth post office, so she probably got it Saturday.

Friday I also got the letter printed out, signed, notarized, and mailed back to the bank for the final settlement of my mother's estate. It'll be the first anniversary of her death in about a week.

My computer is still in the shop so I'm doing everything on an iPad, which means there's a lot I can't do. The bathroom electrical situation is still up in the air and now my clothes dryer has suddenly stopped working...which might be electrical and not the machine. Arghhhh!

Been having some sort of gastro-intestinal problem off and on for the past week. Yesterday (and today) I've had oatmeal for breakfast and mostly rice the rest of the day. And a bit of kimchee because it's fermented. Need to go out later an get some live culture yoghurt because I'm out and some bananas. Sticking to easy to digest foods for awhile and stuff to get my gut flora and fauna back in whack. (That's a technical medical term...)

Linn