Tam, Maeve is right...there is no curse. Please try to disabuse yourself of this thought. Life can be so unspeakably cruel & unfair that we search for reasons as to why, when there are none, none except Life itself. I realise that my platitudes bring you scant comfort, but they are written with the best of intentions, in the hope that you will soon be released from your slough of despond & enjoy life once again,
                                     With Love,
                                                    Nigel
                                                    xxxxx