Jon, if that's the answer that comes to mind today, that's what you have to work with.

I'd have to say that what you call guts... is not something I would want you to have more of. So, how could your music make you even more "gutless"?

I'm not being flip, I promise. If you were to face in the direction of not being able to kill yourself, what would be the next, possible step toward life, and how might your music be involved?? Cuz I'll tell you one thing I know for sure-- I've heard you play, and that is defintely the music of a human being crackling with LIFE. IMNSHO.

YMMV. But I hope not.

(I think you actually have a lot of real courage, which IMO is what sticking around and trying to live each day takes in full measure.)

~Susan