This subject is fading faster than Newtown 1st grade,
so a word about healing before its gone.

The direct and distant victims may all feel a kind of ; if only, if I coulda, woulda, shoulda, I might have. These are shock thoughts, the sooner you ban them from your mind the better. If you can just talk you will feel better. Some have the luxury of free non judgmental friends who will listen quietly but most of us will have to pay professionals. Do it. Instead of spending on your home spend for your mind.