I am a child of divorce. No, I was not the cause, so I have had some experience with this. Divorce is hard on children. But, it is much harder on them to live in a house where the parents obviously dont get along. When my parents split up all I felt was relief. You say you cant imagine staying with him and you cant imagine beig without him? Are you familiar with the phrase, "Caged bear syndrome"? If a bear lives in a cage for a long time, it wont come out even if you leave the door open.We are no different.As Shakespere said "Better to suffer the devils we know than to fly to those whom we know not." Something like that.

You have to ask permission to watch TV? Read the 13th amendment to the Constitution.