A lot of us here are getting older, and as time goes on there are far more deaths around us than weddings, etc. I've been to seven or eight funerals in the last couple of years. So what? That's life. Seize the day, carpe diem, live in the moment, enjoy what you can and stop musing about your coming death. If it bugs you, just make sure you'll be leaving everything in good order, eat healthily, get some exercise, forget it and book yourself a holiday. Or have a big ice cream.