Sorry, LTS, for daring to speak my mind. I crashed after a two week upswing, the other night and this upheaval is very wearing. I have been dealing with this shit since adolescence and when I saw BobP's post it just struck me in the face. I get tired of people just telling me to cheer up or to get some exercise. You'll feel good then, they say. I am also tired of people telling me to smoke grass or to take a drink, that will get you good, they say...and no it does not. I am just bloody sick of this shit.