Dear Morticia,

Others have already said it well, but I will add my word as a professing Christian. We don't know what comes after our life here on earth, so please don't add to your grief by worrying about it! Each of us chooses what to believe & I hope your beliefs can strengthen you & help you through your life. Suicide is more difficult, I think, than some of the other losses caused by death. My father-in-law killed himself about 20 years ago & I still feel a twinge of pain when I think of him. There's always the sense that you wish you could have said/done something that might have prevented it. That is past history, though. That person made a choice & we are left to live w/ it. It's hard & it hurts, but there is still life to be lived here & now. Take a deep breath & get on w/ it. It will get somewhat easier w/ time. I'm so sorry for your loss.

bbc