just makes me wonder how her brain works. i'm not uncomfortable with her contacting me, but i think she is under pressure from current bloke not to ring me, which i can understand. but if shes so keen to keep in touch why dump me in the first place? never did get an explanation why she left me, by the way. "you've been perfect" she said. true love is the only description i'm afraid. i don't suppose she feels quite the same as i do, but then she is a couple of years younger than me. i suspect she just wanted to go to university with no ties. anyway, she's rung me at least every couple of months since then. i actually dumped my last girlfriend because she destroyed all the letters that em (object of adoration)sent to me when we were together. nothing could have upset me more, and she knew it. anyway, i'm still pretty hung up about this girl - i just wish i knew what she really wants. sorry to be a bit pathetic. it always kind of throws me when she gets in touch. opens old wounds etc.

ej.