Half past two in the morning. What am I doing here? can hardly type. Thanks for the advice folks. Still don't know what, if anything I'm going to do about this. Should really get some sleep. Little chance of that happening though. She said she'd call today - she hasn't, and I feel completely screwed up. (don't worry, this isn't serious or life threatening - it always happens: give me a day or two, i'll be fine). God I need a drink.

She doesn't mean to hurt me - she knows how I feel.

somewhat crushed EJ.