Can't help with your dilemma KB, but I'm looking at this thread with interest. I have been working in training and development for 30 years and I've decided that I'm going to leave the organisation I'm working for and go and do something else. The whole idea is scary - I'm not just finishing a job, I'm ending a career. I'm doing it for a number of reasons, partly because the company I work for appears not to value my skills and experience and one result of that is that I'm losing my bottle (I regularly have to stand up and deliver to big, scary groups) and partly because I'm conscious that pretty soon I'm going to be the old fart on the block. Tie all of this in with the fact that I've got a significant birthday galloping towards me and the sum is that I'm full of trepidation - but not enough to stop me doing it. When I rationalise, I realise that the best I've got out of life is when I've 'gone for it' - setting up my own business a few years ago, getting up on stage in front of a big audience, going for a big move on a climbing route and so on, and the fear butterflies feel just like the excitement ones - when I rationalise! There's a brilliant bit in the prologue to 'Illusions' which talks about letting go and moving with the flow. That's what I've always tried to do, and am trying to stick with now, but it is SCARY! Sorry to pinch your thread, KB, for a bit of self-talk but I've not been able to articulate this at all till now - and am conscious that this rambles a bit. I suppose if I was in a 3D caff with mates, I'd brazen it over. Cheers