HiCarol, That's O.k.,Im just frustrated as hell.Maybe I was a bit general anyways.I am a good person who has to find happiness somehow. I probably will never have an affair when push comes to shove.I'm just frightened by my age(49) and don't want to make any MORE mistakes. I just wish I could have a life where I am happy and have a soulmate who is honest and willing to be apart of me. That's all. And it is getting late in life for me to act like I'm 30 with many years to go. By the way, I'm a huge Roger Mcguinn fan. I play his music a lot, have a 12 string Rickenbacker signed by him.Also a huge beachboy fan. Check out Surf's Up! or Long Promised Road! Those songs really pick me up when I'm down. Kendall...What is a Anneagram no. 9. Sounds like a colonoscopy!!!!Honest to God Kendall... Your alright!