Hail Micca, my newest old friend. I've been there too. And while things may be dark now, bear in mind that in less than three short weeks the light will commence its renaissance. Flow with the seasons, greet the returning Sun, be youthfully Yulish, and have a dozen pints for me and BG. And while the bright leaves you here gazed upon are now gone, they will be back even brighter when you return again -- Tom