It is a reflecting pool. We see ourselves. Members such as KL, S, and WW find painful experiences and seek healing. Guests, like myself, find a playground of frivolous antics where scholarship once reigned. In your case, Stephen Crane expressed it well.

In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hands,
And ate of it.
I said, "Is it good, friend?"
"It is bitter -- bitter," he answered;
"But I like it
Because it is bitter,
And because it is my heart."

Play Hard, Have Fun, Be Safe!!!

Sincerely,
Gargoyle