Hugs from here too and you've gotten plenty of good advice. I know everything seems to need done now, but if you take care of yourself now, there will be more time later. I figured I'd never make 40 at best and so lived hard and didn't care when I was young. Trust me, taking care of your health now is a lot easier than paying the price later when you outlive your "estimate."

Get a job and do what HAS to be done......If you don't, those dreams will never happen....fact.

Spaw