well I am not sure that you HAVE to prove your self daily or at all but the fact that you see your working to be entertaining and skilled and listenable all the good stuff about being on that stage, the fact you see that as proving yourself is a real gift. Be thankful for it. Be as critical and as honest as you can.

I feel sometimes that when I get praise, I'm not "worthy". I see the flaws and glitches and I know that I didn't reach my best level and when people come up to me after a set and TELL me how good it was I sometimes feel as though I cheated.

Isn't THAT nuts?

The positive thing is I always allow MY judgement of my ability and of my performance to help me focus and improve. Yeah, I guess some of us ARE just a tad insecure!

CB