You have already taken the first step, you posted here. You know there is a problem, great, now do something about it. Reread your own post and then reread Bruces', Boberts', Lizs', Johns' all the posts, ten times each.

Ask you girlfriend for help and strength. Tell her to make you do it. Fight it together.

My oldest brothers' doctor said to him about 8 or 10 years ago. "Stop drinking right now or you are going to die." He runs marathons now!

Live man!, heal and Live.

Roy