Hi Mrs Lemon. I think your confusing too different things here. When you sing a song with your eyes open (and making I contact) you are rooted in the "normal" world of social reality. When you play or sing intensely with eyes shut you can enter "mythic dream time space" where "I" and the "other" dissolve into being in the moment. When I here a song sung like this I too close my eyes and surrender to magic of the moment. Experiencing this state of mind is the main reason I'm a musician. I'm sorry that you find this embarrassing, because I think you're missing a very rich, life enhancing experience. A similar thing can happen at instrumental sessions when the tune seems to almost appear it's so real. In this state you are not playing the tune the tune is playing you, or more accurately you and the tune are one. I'm afraid this spiritual side of music is a bit of a taboo subject, and a lot of people will run a mile from the direct experience of transcendence. Maybe some people can enter this state with their eyes open, but I can't. All the best PP.