Big bummer about the program. I think the water in the well is going to keep getting higher for you (until you eventually reach the rope yourself). You sound so much more in command of yourself and your situation than you did even just a few weeks ago. It looks and sounds to me like you have been and are growing a hell of a lot from your experiences. And getting much stronger. It looks and sounds to me like you're building your life one gruelling brick at a time, but it looks like you are building something lasting and very important.

I think you are doing/will do some amazing things with your life.

(((((((((((((((BIG hugs))))))))))))))))

Carol