First love hurts the worst when it ends. There is the powerful illusion that this is the first and only person for you, if only you could get through to him or her. Be assured that the agony will never again be as great. I guess we develop some callouses on our souls over the years, for better or worse. As we age we abandon many of our illusions, and we love more wisely, but never again with such blind passion. I suggest you write him a letter saying exactly how you feel. You can send it or bury it in a drawer or burn it- but it may give you some clarity. And if you want to talk about it there are many here that care, Fair.

LEJ