I have used auto-hypnosis. I'm not as expert as some who have already offered their opinions, but FWIW...

From what little I know of Rohypnol & suchlike I doubt that the state that you would be in after a dose of that kind of stuff would be conducive to putting you into a trance.

Equally, although any self-respecting hypnotist or book on the subject will tell you not to experiment with hypnosis (self- or otherwise) having drunk, I doubt that alcohol could induce a state where you would be both receptive to hypnotism *and* unable to remember anything about it.

Suggestion: If it doesn't give you a screaming fit, it might be worth asking your psych. if he can recommend a good hypnotist, because a good hypnotist ought to be able to take you back through your memories to the point where this 'incident' occurred, in order to find out whether there is any substance to your fears/memories. The only danger at this point, as far as I can see, is that you may have convinced yourself of all sorts of nastiness by now, so that you genuinely believe something happened, regardless of whether it did or not.

With all due respect, it looks as if you might rather have simply wound yourself up (or allowed someone rather nasty to wind you up) to something near breaking point.

Answer this question (for yourself, not for the board) - what was it that you were actually supposed to have done? Was it *really* that bad? Hands up anyone on this board that hasn't, at some time, made a complete & utter pillock of themselves... [looks round, sees no hands] See? Whatever it was you did, there's plenty who've survived things more mortifying. If you can say "yes I might have done that under outside influences, I wish I hadn't, & I'll damn well try & make sure I never do it again" there's no-one has the right to beat up on you.

Which is basically what your psych. will try & tell you in 5000 more words & at considerable extra expense! *g* Try & be more relaxed about it. You can't undo it, it's done. You're not going to put yourself in a situation where it can happen again if you can possibly help it. People can only use shame/embarassment/whatever as a weapon against you IF YOU *LET* THEM!!! If you're prepared to say "Yeah, so what?", shrug your shoulders & admit your mistakes, there's very little anyone can do to harm you.

Whatever is at the root of this - best of luck!