Hi jimmyt.
Life is good and to be grateful that the universe made you is healthy, but please don't think that you don't deserve it. Your here at the end of a long line of things that swam, crawled and climbed your right to be here was won by them, back through all the generations. You are heir to all the struggle that placed you here and you have as much right to exist as a fly or a Whale.
All the best PP