Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Janie
Date: 13 May 14 - 01:27 AM

Yeh. Mudcat has been having some problems that appear, from what I can read but not understand very well, have to do with the host servers Max is using now. Several savy people talking stuff I don't understand about "pings" "host servers" "mirrors" etc. They appear to be speculating based on their much greater technological understanding and programs they have run or can interpret. Very frustrating, but considering what we pay for our subscription fees and that Max is doing all he can to keep a very significant website running on a shoestring budget and volunteer time (his own and that of others,) it is hard to complain.

In any event, the 'Cat has been down for extended periods of time lately, and has been very slow for the most part, for months. We get much more than most of us pay for. I probably don't contribute an average of $50 a year to Mudcat if I were to look at my financial contributions over the nearly 14 years I have been here.

I get annoyed that Max is not communicative at times. But really, that is being unreasonable.

I understand that no one here is complaining, though all of us are likely to feel frustration. Just sharing my flawed understanding about why it is so hard to get on to get our "fix", and beyond that, our concern that we can't communicate at will to reinforce our community.

I think we just have to trust that we all hold one another, and many others in our hearts and minds, sometimes at the front of our minds but always there in our conscious, caring, and loving awareness that we sail on this ship of life, this ship of consciousness, however one chooses to think about consciousness.

Like others, I may not post for several days or even several weeks. I can safely assume that others, just like myself, are on board or sailing along side in the convoy. such a large crew that one can take a rest or disembark for r&r, know there is still a full complement of hands on deck, and that all one has to do is whistle to jump on-board again, either as a crewmember pulling hard at oars or handling ropes and sails, or as a passenger or shipwreck survivor, in need of a little or a lot of succor.

Even though I don't post as often as I once did, and often post simply to indicate I'm still here, I trust that all of you are "present" often, even when not posting or when Mudcat is down, and that you trust that I also am "here", often, whether posting or not.

Knowing there is unconditional care and concern for us matters to our strange species. Within close personal relationships in 3-D, with family and friends, it is sometimes hard to see the unconditional aspect, and sometimes hard to allow it to flow to those we love and have expectations of, even though it is often there. One of the potential benefits of an on-line community is there is a detachment possible that allows for one to feel care and concern and receive care and concern unconditionally. We are all looking to get our needs met, but we do not have the unrealistic expectations of one another that we tend to have in 3-D of the people we know up close and personally.

This place here on Mudcat is like a focused lens used to set a dry leaf on fire. A place to ask for and give objective care and concern, from the heart and from our awareness and compassion for one another. In recognition that the phrase "we are all in this together", means we are never "terminally unique" in what we think, feel or experience, and are never as alone as we sometimes may think we are.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 12 May 14 - 07:58 PM

Pete, I haven't delved into Mudcat for a couple of days. When I tried to go to it, it was moving so slowly that I decided to save myself some frustration and went onto other things!

Tami, I'm glad your mother is doing well and that your grandmother will be treated as she and her family wish. I heard Anne Lister in Providence Saturday night and enjoyed her singing. She sang that song.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: GUEST,pete from seven stars link
Date: 12 May 14 - 11:38 AM

ditto to gnu.
blessings on you, your mum, and grandma, ranger.
anyone else been unable to get this thread up , the last few days ?.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: gnu
Date: 12 May 14 - 10:29 AM

Good news, r1. Hope all gets sorted.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ranger1
Date: 12 May 14 - 09:51 AM

Talked with Mum last evening, she sounds better than she has in months. My Gramma is on way too many meds, the doctors aren't listening to what the family is telling them: my grandmother has had an irregular heart beat most of her life, stemming from rheumatic fever when she was a young child. Also, she is 89 and still very sharp mentally and has no desire to deal with the physical and mental side effects of the drugs they are giving her. Her regular doctor is siding with the family on this and they will be weaning her off them. Had a lovely chat with Gramma earlier in the week and entertained her with all my spring flora and fauna discoveries. She tells me how much I remind her of her father with my woods knowledge.

And to celebrate this lovely May morning, a song from Mudcat's own Anne Lister (who I will be seeing in concert this evening! Much excitement!): May Morning

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 12 May 14 - 09:24 AM

sailing along on a cream coloured sea

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: maeve
Date: 12 May 14 - 09:21 AM

Arise, Rainbow.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Rapparee
Date: 09 May 14 - 10:55 PM

Refresh the cream!

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ranger1
Date: 08 May 14 - 10:57 PM

And like cream, let this thread rise to the top!

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: GUEST,pete from seven stars link
Date: 07 May 14 - 12:34 PM

wishing happy remembrances to counteract the sad feelings of those remembering loved ones.       blessings all    pete.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: gnu
Date: 07 May 14 - 12:08 PM

The page can... FINALLY! ... be displayed. This is the third browser I have tried. Too bad I have only that to report.

Carry on. Smoke em if ya got em.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 06 May 14 - 09:30 PM

Up again!

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Sandra in Sydney
Date: 05 May 14 - 08:50 PM

hmmm, I know I posted sometime last week ...

anyway, it's easy to re-post a bunch of hugs to everyone

sandra

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: maeve
Date: 05 May 14 - 08:13 PM

Etta James- Willow Weep For Me

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 04 May 14 - 08:58 PM

Yes, janie, that is okay and not really surprising. Hugs for you, too.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Janie
Date: 04 May 14 - 06:42 PM

Hugs from me also, Tam.

The memorial service we attended at WVU for people who have donated their bodies was very nice. I had a bit of a meltdown, which surprised me. Different triggers that left me awash with emotion at times of an intensity I didn't know was still there. Blind-sided myself. That's OK.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: maeve
Date: 04 May 14 - 03:29 PM

Rise again.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: billybob
Date: 03 May 14 - 05:30 AM

I have been AWAL from the Rainbow for a week, stood on my laptop ( don't ask............. note to self, don't go on FB in bed then put laptop on floor and tread on it when getting out of bed during the night, it is expensive !!)

So I have been catching up on the crew this morning and sending hugs and love to every one here xxxxxxxx

Beautiful sunny morning in Frinton, tomorrow the local bluebell woods are open for the day so we plan to take mother.

much love

Wendy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 02 May 14 - 09:04 PM

Hugs from me, too.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ranger1
Date: 02 May 14 - 05:22 PM

(((Tam)))

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: VirginiaTam
Date: 02 May 14 - 05:58 AM

Very difficult anniversaries this week. I can't believe Andie has been gone 9 years.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 01 May 14 - 11:45 PM

Oops, I guess it was Tami I agreed with!

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 01 May 14 - 11:44 PM

Oh, Janie, hugs from me, too. I agree with gnu. Our animal companions are family members, too.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ranger1
Date: 01 May 14 - 09:34 PM

It counts every bit. Family is family, regardless of number of legs.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Janie
Date: 01 May 14 - 08:19 PM

Thanks, maeve, gnu and Tami. I know that compared to what so many of you are dealing with, the loss of a beloved 4 legged family member doesn't compare.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ranger1
Date: 01 May 14 - 07:33 PM

Aw, so sorry, Janie! (((Janie))) and the rest of your family, too.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: gnu
Date: 01 May 14 - 05:40 PM

Nigel, Janie, all... bless.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: maeve
Date: 01 May 14 - 03:19 PM

All the virtual hugs you need, Janie. (((((Janie and family))))

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: GUEST,Janie
Date: 01 May 14 - 08:36 AM

Could use a hug. Our sweet old dog died during the night.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: GUEST,pete from seven stars link
Date: 30 Apr 14 - 06:32 PM

some very pleasant music, that I would not otherwise have looked up. thanks. blessings    pete.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Nigel Paterson
Date: 30 Apr 14 - 08:11 AM

I'm sitting here, reading your posts, sometimes smiling, oft times thoughtful, sometimes crying, but always deeply grateful that you're all here, traversing the Seven Seas of Life. I picture you as you tackle your daily chores. I empathise with you when Life's swell threatens to overwhelm. I imagine a gathering on shore where we meet, eat, drink, sing & talk together. I am thrilled when folk return after a long absence. I guess, in a rather disjointed way, I'm trying to say that I need Jane's Rainbow as much now as I did, back in January 2012. My needs have modified over time, but You, my Dear Friends, are just as precious as you've always been. Trim the sails. Scrub the decks. Check the compass, we voyage onwards, ever onwards.
                                                       With Love to You All,
                                                                                       Nigel

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: gnu
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 09:44 PM

I like the good news. Not so much the bad news. Hugs either way. Another long day here so I'll just say gnightgnu and bless.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Janie
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 09:40 PM

Oops. Previous music link didn't take. Paul Thorn. That's Life

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Janie
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 09:36 PM

Oh yeh, Chantylass.

I forgot to say how much I enjoyed that video, maeve. Also, your crested irises bloomed this year for the first time! Brought a smile to my face and lovely thoughts of you every time I stepped out the back door and gazed at them.

Our marvelous old dog, Amy, is dying. Renal failure. I went over to my ex's tonight to spend a little time with her. I hope to be able to go over when the hospice vet comes to euthanize her, but that may need to happen while I am out of town this weekend. We have never had a dog that we didn't experience as a great dog, and it is always so hard to say goodbye.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Janie
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 08:49 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlthNE11yvk

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 08:45 PM

Great news, Tami!

Maeve, that clip was delightful. I've just shared it on FB.

Janie, keep doing your best to keep the lines of communication open between you and your son. Between the two of you, you are sure to work things out.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Janie
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 08:26 PM

Mandolin Orange Hey Adam

A couple of kids who live in my neck of the woods.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: GUEST,pete from seven stars link
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 05:49 PM

great news of an overall upturn, ranger 1.
wishing you some ease of mind, Janie.
blessings    pete.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ranger1
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 05:25 PM

And before I forget: Thank you, all you lovely, lovely people, for all the prayers, good mojo, white light, warm thoughts, and support. I, and my family, appreciate it.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ranger1
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 05:20 PM

No music links, but I have good news. Mom's being discharged tomorrow and Gramma's heartbeat is back to normal and they may send her home tomorrow, as well. I am hopefully going home tomorrow to my own bed, my cat, J-Boy, and my job. We do have someone staying with the invalids for a bit, so not to worry.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: maeve
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 04:35 PM

Refreshhhhhh

Anyone have more music links for us?

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: maeve
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 06:32 AM

For Janie and her son...and all on board.
Swimming

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Janie
Date: 29 Apr 14 - 12:09 AM

Having some of my own struggles. Definitely different from what we have talked about here. I am the 62 year old parent of a 20 year old son and we are seesawing across apron strings out of sync with one another. He saws through a section and I snatch it back, shouting in my own need, "Not yet!" I loosen a knot and he grabs the end, shouting in his own need "Not yet!" Intellectually I trust us both and know that eventually it will work out, but it is hard in the meantime. Through no fault of his own, he is going to need to be much more independent much younger in many ways than is the case when one's children are only separated age-wise by one generation from the parents.

I feel silly even asking for your empathy, and also know that none of you will begrudge my asking. No big, threatening waves coming at me, just the normal and very predictable choppy waves of any life.

Some one give us a good song to keep time with the rowing or the managing of the sails!

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Janie
Date: 28 Apr 14 - 10:03 PM

Ahhh, Tami. You are wise. Wisdom doesn't make a road less rocky, eh?

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ranger1
Date: 28 Apr 14 - 07:14 PM

Oops! Poor grammar there. The car will be fixed tomorrow afternoon, waiting to hear about Mum.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 28 Apr 14 - 07:13 PM

I didn't think that last post had worked, so I went back to this thread to check. Not only did it take, it was #3,500! The rainbow sails on!

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ChanteyLass
Date: 28 Apr 14 - 07:10 PM

Oh my, Tami, I guess this is what it takes to be thankful that your car broke down! I hope you mother, grandmother, and car are all fixed up soon and that your life does indeed become dull--or at least normal!

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: ranger1
Date: 28 Apr 14 - 04:11 PM

My life is welcome to return to boring any time now. Gran to hospital by ambulance this morning. Atrial fibrillation, she's there at least 24 hours. Trying an IV drug to help heart back to normal sinus rhythm, if that doesn't work, internal echo cardiogram to check for blood clots and then a minor shock to see if that does the trick. Good thing car broke down on Friday and stranded me here, otherwise no one would have been here with her. Waiting to hear if Mum will be discharged today, and my car will be fixed tomorrow afternoon.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: Rapparee
Date: 28 Apr 14 - 10:03 AM

Refresh.

Subject: RE: Jane's Rainbow: for all needing support & comfort
From: GUEST,pete from seven stars link
Date: 27 Apr 14 - 07:45 AM

good to read that there was a silver lining in that cloud. trust the car gets fixed fine. another prayer offered, and wishing the best for you and yours.   blessings       pete.