0Hank Williams Tonight
by Jerry Jeff Walker

I could have lived my whole life without a phone call,
The likes of which I got today.
'Twas only my wife. Said, "Hello and goodbye",
And told me she was goin' away.

Well I didn't cry it was all cut and dried.
I hung up before I realized.
So I turned up my stereo and walked to the window,
And stared at the storm clouds outside.

CHO:
And I play classical music when it rains,
I play country when I am in pain.
But I won't play Beethoven, the mood's just not right.
I feel like Hank Williams tonight.

There was no explanation, not even a reason.
No talk of the good times we'd had.
Was it me? Was it her? I don't know for sure,
And that's why I'm feelin' so bad.

CHO:
And I play jazz when I am confused,
I play country whenever I lose.
But Byrd's saxophone, it just don't seem right.
I feel like Hank Williams tonight.

Lately I been thinkin' I just might quit drinkin',
But now I don't know, all in all.
I just might stay home. Get drunk all alone.
And punch a few holes in the wall.

CHO:
And when I'm real high I play rock and roll.
I play country when I lose control.
But I won't play Chuck Berry, the mood's just not right.
I feel like Hank Williams tonight.

Take three renditions of this song and call the Mudcat in the morning.

This song speaks to me of one way I use music. I offer it to you.

Fair Youngmaid,

You have gotten lots of excellent advice. Find some one or several someones with whom you can talk. For this pain to heal, you must let it out and share it with the world in some way. Talking is an easy way. Writing and playing are other ways. A burden shared is a burden lessened. So you've done good to reach out to this cyber community to share your anquish.

There is a fantasy that there is one right person out there for each of us. It's a lie. There are many people with whom each of us can have a successful love relationship. Your task is not to find the one, but rather just one.

Some of us find more than one at one time and that may become problematic.

You are not likely to find one of yours by sitting in your room typing into the Mudcat. So take FADAC's advice and get out of the house and do something.

If you must mull over the relationship, try to think what lured you to try a relationship with someone who does not seem to meet your needs. If we keep finding broken people, it is usually because something is broken within us. For many years, I unconsciously found angry women. After much help from others, I've found I was looking for someone to be angry for me rather than for me to be angry myself. Anger was not allowed in my family. Now, I get angry on my own and meet much nicer women.

Take time to enjoy yourself, because it will take time to heal.

Roger in Baltimore