Oh sweetheart I sympathise and understand. I was in exactly the same boat as you. I'd got to know someone online, we wrote, phoned, met - not often as we lived miles apart - but for 2 years I thought he was falling in love as deeply as me. I was wrong. It turned out that he was looking for long-distance fun, not committment. He was a cheating bastard and that's what he'd made me because I'm married and was prepared to give everything up for him. I too felt cold, upset and stunned, just like you, and sitting here now at my desk at work, I crying as I do every day because I can't believe I was stupid enough to believe him when he said I was beautiful and that he loved me. I'm going to click "submit" now before I come to my senses, but you and I are not alone. Happy St Valentine's Day - it will get better.