GUEST,I'd rather not say.
On the one hand, you may find it hard to hear anybody, I suppose.
On the other hand, you posted.
The people are right. Seek professional help. Look for the one who you think you can work with.
In the hope that you are open enough, my reponse to your last question,"Why is life worth living?", it's not about 'Why?' but 'How? In other words my life has meaning because of how i live it.